Another sharing from me.

Somehow i was not that happy yesterday. My mood swings these few days and i guess Prince Lychee suffers a lot. I am not sure why i let my mood swings just like that, just I don’t find joy in it, although it’s something that i enjoy doing every day.

I told Prince Lychee about it. To him, it’s a small matter, small dao....

To forgive, to forget, both are hard to make it. However, i think it’s even harder to forget than to forgive. I am too “small gas” to throw away my happy mood because of a small thing.

When i searched through google for a picture, i found this meaningful phrase.

====== Give to Get =====

I gonna forgive someone, to be specific i should forgive myself to be so “small gas”.

Do you experience the same thing as me? Hope that the torn in your heart can be thrown away.

I know this will leave behind a scar.....Please don’t let the scar gets over your life, let GOD hands it.

Gambateh~

Today I reach office at around 7.45am, spending 45 minutes to read spiritual book. Yeah, i start with another new book, namely “Take it to heart” Chinese version (ba ni fang zai wo xin shang). It has a very attractive cover page, scratch-typed drawing with kiddie picture.

It’s a 60-days devotional book. The one that i would like to share is about “Smelling HIM”.

The title sounds a bit weird to me. The content is a simple article. A lot of friends around me are not confident with Christianity because they can’t see Jesus, a person who can’t be “touched” by hands. I believe you as Christian would tell them that you can feel Jesus deep in your heart, right? Yeah, you got it.

We can breathe because of oxygen, but can you see it? Nope, you can’t but you know the presence of oxygen. No people who can’t find GOD, just that they don’t confess the truth. GOD uses different ways to show HIS glory to us, HE doesn’t hide it from us indeed. HE is so jubilantly to show us all about HIM.

Moment of silence : reminisce the piece of memory whereby you strongly feel the presence of GOD

I watched out of the lonely window. There is greenery just outside the office. I can see birds chirping, flying joyously in the air. I can see blue sky, softy floating cloud..... all the creation of GOD. GOD is everywhere. This really makes me “YAHOO” silently in my heart. Wakaka. As usual, i end with a prayer. Prayer seems to become a norm in my life, words of prayer repeated by itself, which is something pity. I gonna start all over again refreshed...to build intimate relationship with GOD anew.

I remember the very 1st prayer that I prayed in loud was with bro watermelon. Guess he is growing very healthily now, praise the LORD. From that day onwards, i tell myself to keep praying for others, whenever i feel the needs to do so. Friends, do not be afraid to pray in loud ya. May GOD bless you through the journey.

Has you smell GOD today? I can ensure you that it’s a great thing to start your Monday. Hopefully your moment of silence is as fragrant as a rose. Enjoy it ya~

Good morning everyone. Hope that you have a great start of Wednesday.

I feel that I am a great eater, being choosy at times. Hehe. Piece of cake doesn’t mean buying or baking a cake to enjoy. Instead, it’s something that satisfies my taste bud.

I am not so sure whether you can have this type of dish outside or not. Fried chicken with Pandan leaves. It turns out to be very tasty wor. Of course got secret in chicken seasoning...

Let's see the "outfit" of the "koko kek"

Ok, start working lo~

最近看了一本书，书名为《遇见。爱》，super好看。

里头诉说着六位艺人的故事，他们如何遇见耶稣这份爱。他们就是鼎鼎大名的吴建豪，六月，黑人，梁文音，Tank，蔡燦得和杨佑宁七位艺人。

这本书是《真情部落格》节目企划出版的书。书中七位艺人的真心表白让我感动不已。差不多每一小段落就会想掉泪。他们的生命旅程并不是我们在电视荧幕前所看到地那么亮丽，他们的背后的事才是真正让人鼓舞的一首歌，一部戏。。。

我万万没想到原来。。。

吴建豪曾经那么孤单，夜里辗转难眠，有一晚他说：如果这个世界真有一位神愿意赐给他一夜好眠，那么他就愿意相信他。过了那一夜的熟睡，他就寻找心里的那一位神。我唯一追看的一部偶像剧，就是《流星花园》，他在里头演美作，那时他头发直到，还是现在比较帅啦。他让我很感动的是，他如何带领他亲爱的妈妈信主，双手握住妈妈的手做决志祷告的Van Ness，让我心里充满了酸溜溜的泪水。他，生活在花花世界的一位弟兄，找到在上帝眼中的自己。他的故事也让我不小心发现喂喂小弟部落格的《MOGLOS》如何来的，你们想知道，就自己去问他啊～

六月，起初看到这个名字，还不知道是谁，看了里头的照片，就“哦，就是有演《意难忘》的”。一位得过金钟奖最佳女主角的女孩。。。六月生在一个破碎的家庭，父母离异后，就由她的阿姨带大。她曾经口袋里只剩下五十元，去哪里都是双脚为她奔波。她妈妈吸毒的新闻让她的世界忽然黑暗起来，开始封闭自己，几乎夜夜难睡，得靠安眠药才能入睡，一直一直哭。期间，她妈妈常常打电话给她，永远第一句话就是：你有没有钱，我没有钱了。她儿时被爷爷奶奶强逼受洗，不过她并不明白其中的意义。她说她跟着朋友到处去拜拜，她形容当时简直就是：有香就拿，见庙就拜。六月不去找上帝，上帝却来找她了。上帝派来天使带领她回到教会，她第一次回到教会唱诗歌，才哼了两句，就开始大哭。。。就这样，慢慢的，她的生命开始与上帝相扣在一起了。

黑人，看到他的名字，就想到《最重要的决定》这首歌，还有他与范范让很多人羡慕的恋情。还没看这本书，我觉得应该是范范带领他信主的（事实是范范的妈妈带领他信主的）。也非常38想知道他的灵命成长。虽然里头并没有很详细诉说他与主相遇的过程，不过，让我看到一位一直在寻找父亲背影的黑人。在他创业当中，他不忘把荣耀归给上帝，我想这是很多人难以做到的。有一句话吸引到我，是一位小女孩说的：医生说我的生命只剩下一点点，可是我还想活着，因为我好热爱我的生命。。。如果是你，你会怎样呢？

还有近日红了的梁文音，会知道这位艺人，是因为云儿妹妹分享的《那双看不见的手》。十三岁住进育幼院，应该是类似孤儿院那样的场所，而且她是自己要去的。10岁时，她爸爸就意外身亡，妈妈酗酒，精神不稳定，小小的身躯，带着弟弟，抱着无助的心灵去育幼院。书里写着，她相信一件事，而且非常确定---她正是被上帝“使用”的人，所以她清楚知道她活着的目的。多么有魄力的一句话。。。也让我思考着我活着的目的。。。并不是一定要经历过什么坎坷的道路才会紧紧跟随着主，相信上帝，不是因为祂可以为我们行什么“哇”的事，反之，信祂就因为祂是上帝。最近我也是问自己好多问题，重整跟随神的脚步～

还有一位TANK，吓到我的是他和他姐姐患有先天性的心脏病。他姐姐突然过世，让他害怕在继续下去，哪怕下一个离开的就是他。他说了一句好深奥的一句话：原来一颗心受伤时为了要更有勇气，原来勇气是因为失去才有意义。嗯，你看明白其中的意思吗？嗯，我不知道，所以不要问我啊。呵呵。

他们的故事就分享到此。。。

看了这本书，让我更珍惜我的生命以及我所拥有的。万物都有时。。。

我的心很软，不过性格有时还蛮倔强下。常不允许自己浪费时间，像每天一定要看属灵书籍，睡前一定要读经差不多一个小时，房间每天都要收拾，客厅厨房地板每天都抹。。。弄到有一阵子我每天都好像很忙，甚至还念荔枝王子用时间看那么多戏。他超爱看戏，而且我却是不会把时间消耗在戏（ShSh…卡通片不算数）中。

他也讲了我好多次，叫我不要那么固执，一定要每天抹地什么。在家，每一餐后，我都习惯性把饭厅和厨房都抹干净，所以咯。最严重的一次，短短的下午傍晚，我抹差不多五次，我爱吃巧克力也没爱到有巧克力的脚印在地板嘛。慢慢的，我也松懈下来，有一些改变啦，读经也不逼自己一定要看那么久。现在的我，差不多十点半我就开始爱睡了，是好是坏哦？

近期阅读着《上帝的情书》，上班前的半个小时就是慢慢咬嚼上帝的甜言蜜语咯。呵呵。所以，才会那么好心情上班咯～大家也要开心上班+上课哦，别赖床了啦！！

One more thing to update~

Yesterday was my turn to I taught Sunday School class, 11-12 years old. Preparing bible story for younger children is much difficult than bible study for adults. They may not understand or get what I say even I try to convey the message in simplest sentences.

1st experience of teaching did not turn out to be a satisfying one. It’s not like children mission trip whereby most of things are prepared and discussed together. This one I need to prepare by my own. And you may know that my style that I do not like to follow what books tell me to do. Therefore, usually i would spend days to prepare what is suitable and fun to carry out.

I am still considered to be a new sister in Sunday School as not many kids know me. They know me because I am Teacher Lychee punya girlfriend lo. Hehe. It takes time for me to mix into their groups, varying from 3 years old till 13 years old.

Surprisingly, the kids enjoyed the class yesterday. Glory to the LORD. Happy happy happy.... for the past xxx years, I seldom get rejected by kids one but don’t know why city kids will “geleng kepala” when I want to hug them oo...sad sad sad~~ Still ok lah, when I have sweet in my hands, they will still knock their heads one. Cute cute cute~ Only that it is the power of sweet that wins against the war...wakaka.

To tell the truth, i am a bit nervous whenever it’s my turn to teach. Praying to Father in Heaven somehow eases my nervousness. Thank GOD for that. It is not my wisdom to lead, instead, GOD gives me the courage to move every fresh steps for HIM. Yahoo~

Another fruitful weekend for me. I enjoy most of my days and the past weekend had been another wonderful memory to think of. Prince Lychee intended not to go working on Saturday after I uttered my urge to make craft out of the dried flowers. Yeah Yeah!!

I have been in Puchong for more than 3 months, but my supper mood is kind-of lost in space. I think within these 3 months plus, not more than 10 times having my supper time. Hehe. On Fri night, everyone seemed like excited about having supper, so I just follow them out after cell group gathering. I remember I don't have problem having teh panas at night one (erm...maybe only effective in campus gua?). I had a cup of teh panas and I stayed awake till early morning. So tiring...

However, I was looking forward to morning market shopping though I had insufficient rest. Prince Lychee and I went for vege shopping at Puchong big big morning market. Not forgetting to search for filling breakfast. I got to find my new favourite food --- Curry "zhu chiong fan". And yes, I was over-eating till I fall sleep again at around 11am.wakaka~~

Thought of giving up to have craft time this weekend as loving room will be used for tuition the whole Saturday evening. Thank GOD I "fight" against it. Those flowers I got it free as my Convo gift~~ hehe. Thank you thank you. There are still much leftover after i finished this simple art. this idea comes across my mind when i went for a thanksgiving gathering at Cikgu Wong's tuition centre. Ya, I wanna make something as wall deco for her. She treats both Prince Lychee and I very well o..

A glance at my very 1st art of flowers...


Yesterday night, I went to "China Wind" to look for toys to play on this coming Sunday. Prince Lychee will be the game master. So from now on, we need to get all things to be ready before this Sunday. A special Sunday School whereby Orang Asli are invited to join in the crowd. So happy to buy a packet of buttons with just RM 2.Adding new thing to my collection.

Then, went to giant to see see. I am looking for a kind of sweet that keep on 'popping' when in contact with saliva. Childhood memory. Not manage to find it so bought "big foot" to ease my desire~~hihi...

Found 3D crytal puzzle~ I was given two apples by small cloud and geo as my convo present. Love it so much. I saw similar design with different product, high heel shoe. If next time i see more 3D crystal puzzle, i just afraid i will buy one for each items. Very nice oo~

=The End=

Gonna start working lu~

Speaker：Rev Dr Chew Tow Yow

A prayerful life : Celebrating intimacy with GOD (Part 1)
祷告的生命：欢庆与神的亲密

Degree of loving GOD 爱神的程度

1st degree : love ourselves for our own sake.
第一程度：为了自己而爱自己

2nd degree : love GOD for our own sake (because GOD meets our needs).
第二程度：为了自己而爱神（因为神满足我们的需要）

3rd degree : love GOD for His sake, like a mother loves her baby for the baby’s sake.
第三程度：爱神是因为他，好像一位妈妈为了孩子而爱孩子

4th degree : love ourselves only in GOD. “We love because He first loved us.”(John4:19)
第四程度：只在神里面爱我们自己。“我们爱因为他先爱我们。”（约4：19）

Reflection : Where are you in your journey with GOD?
反思：我们与神同行的旅途处于哪一个阶段？
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前三个星期因为毕业典礼，所以错过了这个工作坊。传道认为讲员的分享很棒，就把讲员的讲章翻译成华语，然后在星期六祷告会中抽出十至十五分钟与我们分享。

这是第一个部分。当我刚刚拿到这张纸，对于里头的文字，我还真的不是很明白，虽然每个字都是常用的。共有四个程度，在还未认识主前，是出于在第一个阶段，也就是为了自己而爱自己。当越来越认识主，就会慢慢移去第二阶段。。。

As you all know, i am currently working in Yokogawa. It is truly a great working environment for a marvellous start. I can mingle around with my colleagues and we enjoy our work a lot. Although sometime workload is a bit heavy till we have to stay back for a few hours, we do not feel the burden of OT-ing.

Things have gone on so fairy story-like till......

I received a call from MLNG Petronas last week. I was asked to fill in the online job application form as well as to sit for two Ability Tests within two days. It was MLNG HR Manager who called me up. I told her that I have just received my very 1st confirmation letter. She asked me to give it a try before saying ‘No’ to anything.

I spent the whole morning sending, filling all sort of forms. There were 2 tests, one is comprehension-type of questions and another one is analysis-type of questions. They look easy but time allocation was super short. I can’t really remember the exact time, kind of ½ minute for a question with a short passage.

I didn’t put high hope as I don’t think that I will be awarded for this job. I just try whatever tasks assigned to me. It was surprisingly that I received another call from HR manager yesterday. This time I was asked to attend an interview this coming Friday. I have been praying to know which path GOD is leading me to. Of course, MLNG pay is very tempting, guess almost double of my salary now. However, I don’t have the urge to take up this job. The call ensured me that I will secure a place in MLNG if I really go for it.

Guess what? I am sure many of us will “wah” if manage to enter MLNG. To make you disappointed, I welcomed the call with a gentle “SORRY”. I was a bit miserable yesterday, especially during lunch time. I told my colleagues and also my manager about this. You really can’t imagine how brave an employee voiced out such things to colleagues. We do share lots of things, that's the very sweet part of memory here. They said that I might give it a try.

My manager seemed to be a bit worry of my emotion. In the afternoon, he did talk to me regarding this. If I was to shift to that MLNG, he had no objection and will also approve my leave if I would like to go for the interview. He is considerate and I guess he knows my circumstances as a fresh graduate. Petronas is a company whereby there are millions and millions of engineers who strive very hard to go in. The golden opportunity is in my hand and I just turned it down.

I told General Chion about this matter. I think you all know about him and yes, he listed down a series of reasons why I should go for Petronas. Hehe. I was quite firmed of my decision until Chion’s list came into my mind. He is a very calculative guy especially in job search. He knows the best for himself. But I think I need to follow what GOD has prepared for me. I hope the path I choose is heading towards the right direction, prayerfully it is.

Prince Lychee encouraged me to go for it, saying that it might be another option that GOD is giving me. Finally, I am still here, in Puchong, not choosing Petronas. He said we give us a period of time and observe how GOD lead both of us. Prince Lychee will work at VOLVO starting from next month, not certain whether this change is according to GOD’s will or not.

Anyway, I still need to move forward with courage. Very thankful I have JESUS in my heart. Not knowing what is ahead of me, but I am certained that GOD's right hand is holding me tightly.

A breathtaking scenery type of path?

Or a cool and dull path?

The bolts of your gates will be iron and bronze, and your strength will equal your days.
Deuteronomy 33:25

你的門閂是銅的、鐵的，你的日子如何，力量也必如何。
申命记33:25

如此的心情写照，久久没动笔记录下来。我也不知道为什么？是真的在逃避吗？还是有其他的理由。

离开大专团契后，就直接步入职青小组，人数十个人左右。加加减减，参与这个小组也差不多要半年了，参与感，归属感。。。无法描写，也无法描述。

教会生活，事奉生活，有增无减，甚至精彩得很，查经班，祷告会，我竟然成了年龄最小的那位。小组的生活与我所想象的有很大的不一样。是我没想过是如此的出乎意料。刚刚才从小组回来，今晚是我带领查经。查经，曾经是我最害怕，直到带领读经小组，大学的弟兄姐妹给了我很大的鼓励，每一晚的出席给了我很大的勇气继续读经小组。

说实在的，带领职青小组的查经，真的很不简单。大学很多弟兄姐妹多多少少了解我的带领方式，甚至最难忘的是你们填充的功力越来越强。想到这里，心情有比较好点。。。不过，或许我惯了的带领方式不是很能用在职青小组咯。大家大都是工作者，只有一两位还在求学，所以要CATER全部人的“味道”还真的很考我功夫。

我没有很害怕带领查经。我知道，可以以这种方式事奉，也是一种福分，也很感恩上帝的装备让我更勇敢为祂站出来。职青小组里之前都是组长在负责查经，现在暂时由我带领一两个月。或许在大专团契习惯了多观察，所以一加入这个小组，我就开始思考小组有哪些地方可以改善，可以带领什么比较特别的活动，偶尔也找组长讨论小组事工。组长看到我那么有心，就说她明年要FULL TIME读神学，盘算着谁当新组长，就说我可以尝试尝试下。我以为她说说而已，哪里知道有天打电话给我说已经跟传道说我明年当职青小组的组长。

哇～哇～这个事奉岗位有点。。。吓到我。。。

之前，我有跟荔枝王子说我的困境，说我很难融入这个小组，我的性格在里面好像有点还不是那么像工作者，虽然还有一两位比我小哦。我跟组长说我才来小组不久，所以就把这个事奉岗位推掉了。小组里面有很多情况是我很难一笔一画描述的。

这个小组是上帝的，我相信祂自有祂带领的方向，我更有信心上帝把我置放在这个小组一定有我要学习顺服的功课。荔枝王子没说什么，他也正面对“主日学校长”的骇浪；我们俩你看看我，我看看你，只说了“要祷告”。我们面对的挣扎。。。真是。。。

我在想。。。

我需要的，是荔枝王子对教会/小组的适应与熟悉感。

荔枝王子需要的，是我在大学受的装备，对上帝的那份信心。

我对教会还是有点陌生，所以对于“小组组长”，我认为还有更多人比我更能胜任。

荔枝王子对带领/安排主日学事工没信心，所以对于“主日学校长”，他认为带来的压迫感让他却步了。

上帝真的跟我们俩玩PUZZLE，所缺的那块在另一方的生命盘上。

我还真的很怀念在大专团契的时光。带着小苹果的代号，四处分“爱心苹果”。

现在，“爱心苹果”自己越存越多了，分不出去，我想，时间久了，要把“爱心苹果”送到大学那儿或许也越来越没有“苹果香”了。

处在不习惯的地方，不习惯的人群，是后退的理由吗？

还是小苹果不知如何在这么多的不习惯散发苹果香了？

事奉上帝，还有什么可以逃避的理由吗？明明知道答案了，可是。。。。。。