这个星期上班没什么紧急的工作要完成，算是工作了差不多半年里最闲空的一个星期咯。

今早读了奇智uncle儿子的部落格，他每次写的都让我反思不少，可能他在外地做工，所以很多事情看得比较透彻。

好久没写中文的帖子，一时间有点不习惯。怪怪的感觉。昨晚，有位姐妹来我家，我们四个聊了好久，彼此分享了很多。她还是学生，所以功课与信仰在取舍方面就面对了些挣扎。很感恩，有机会跟她们分享自己过去两年的经历。

弟兄姐妹间如此分享的时段，在进入职场后是少之又少，甚至可以说很难。我一直祷告让我有机会跟他人分享我的生命。我的生命并不是完美到，只是因着有上帝，有了改变。看到大家对信仰有所保留，对于给上帝的时间还是不舍得。她问了我一句，“如果没怎么读书，又怎么能考到好成绩呢？”

我想这个问题，应该会有好多人想问我，尤其是西瓜小弟（他应该没看我的部落格咯）。求学有其技巧，并不是读得久一定会，很多人在图书馆读书，多了聊天的空间；在房间读书，多了睡觉的空间；在食堂读书，多了找东西吃的空间。你说，对不对？哈哈。

我的技巧并不是每个人都用得着的。所以，重要的是找到自己独特的方法咯。我习惯读书时走来走去，甚至第一年我住顶楼时，是边绕走廊边读书的。还有，我读书是分部进入头脑的，所以，我是依着页数，位置记得书中的黄金。打个比方，第一部分读了后，上个厕所，第二部分读了后，吃点东西，第三部分读了后，睡个觉。。。。这样我回想时，是依据部分记得，上厕所前读什么，之后是什么，吃了东西后，又什么进入脑袋。。。是不是很不可思议呢？

24小时，并不是不够用，而是很多时候我们把小小的时间都浪费掉咯。我是很注重自己心情的女子（好像不适合用女孩了哦）。当然要让自己每天开开心心的咯。你们也是哦。

星期日晚上的那两通电话让我开心极了哦。挂了第一通电话，让我不禁控制不了眼泪。哈哈。回想自己如何一步一步认识上帝，从完全不想去理会到愿意学习摆上。也看到身边的弟兄姐妹如何在主的带领下成长，甚至也勇敢地站出来服事。那是多么美好的事哦。一切荣耀归于天父！！才过了十多分钟，泪水还没止就接到第二通电话。好像约好了那样。哈哈。让我很想立刻飞到团契中。还在大学的朋友，好好把握在团契的日子哦。很快就会飞逝了，想回都回不到的哦。。。。

Contact lens artwork has almost come to an end. Yesterday, the design was sent to Taiwan for bulk production already, guess will enter market next year. I heard that the three largest markets are Sabah, Sarawak and Penang. Can’t imagine how I feel when seeing my artwork being marketed around. Clear lens is done; colour lens artwork is on its way, probably next year. Seem like having part-time job in hand...wakaka...

Prince Lychee bought whole set of tools......they are neither for gardening nor cooking... quite hard to guess one. For hair styling de (so nice word to use)....I become hairdresser during weekend. Wakaka... i don’t really know how to cut hair, just treat as bushes trimming and cut cut....my first attempt was not that successful as Prince Lychee’s face grew darker and darker..wakaka...i ignored him and continue my “floral shaping”.

Will be having floral arrangement (cha hua) training this coming Saturday in church. This one is real flower arr...wakaka... anticipating the event. If everything is fine, i will join the serving team as well. See first lah. Learning new handcraft is not bad too....

Recently, i don’t play much with my collection. Just adding few new items to it~~

I have started reading a new book, entitled “Taking Your Soul to Work” by R. Paul Stevens and Alvin Ung. My church invited Brother Alvin for a career talk. This book surrounds around fruit of spirit to relate to workplace. It’s an English book, definitely. I enjoy reading it, although at slower pace, as it’s well-organised.

Please read John 21:15 – 25 before proceed.

I always feel bad when i compare myself with others. And of course, envy arouses when we start to measure how well-being we are in the midst of the crowd. Sometimes i do wandering around, thinking that it might be good if i didn’t start off to be on top of the world at young age.

Success taste has been filling my days since young. The feeling of being excelling penetrates every single edge of my heart. It’s hard to pull myself down and to put myself into others’ shoes. There is one example shown in the book that i would like to share more. First of all, you need to follow the rule of the game, please read the verses ya. TQ~~

When we read this part, our main focus will always be why Jesus asks Peter to feed His sheep repeatedly for three times? Before that, i would like to draw your attention to how Peter answers Jesus. Peter is hurt when Jesus asks him the third time. If i were Peter, i guess i blow out already even being asked for the second time impatiently.

This scenario actually reflects my response towards GOD. Being impatient, being unlovable.... GOD is not loso-ing, HE is always here encouraging me, affirming me that HE is by my side anytime. By the way, why Jesus throws out the question three times? In Greek, the three ‘love’s represent different levels of love. Believers are referred to as sheep throughout Scripture. From here, i know that to take care of sheep is really not as easy as ABC. This motivates me not to give up when encounter stumbling blocks when serving GOD or growing in Christ.

We always miss out verse 15:20, incident where Peter points to another disciple after answering Jesus. Jesus is moulding Peter to be a better man. However, Peter seems to oversee it as a ‘ma-fan’ question. At the very end, he points to another disciple (John) “How about him”?

As for myself, i do the same thing as Peter does too. When i am appointed to do certain task, i will point to other and voice out the same feeling or sometimes keep in heart unrevealed. Without i myself realising, it is indeed envious feeling because i feel like doing more tasks and others leisuring around. You see how Jesus answers Peter, it’s none of his business.

“Wah, mana eh sai like that” is my first thought. I begin to ponder over and over again. I know that GOD is in control of everything, He is the sailor and He takes control of the direction. But somehow i don’t live out the truth. I always see others as example, not Jesus. What people in church do/involve in or how they act, i will feel that it’s right because Christians do right things. Subsequently, i will try out as well. Definitely, this statement is not 100% precision.

I just need to stay still and obey what’s GOD’s plan for me, and not pointing at others. GOD has HIS unique plan for each and every one of us. We have special individuality in GOD.

Other may have happy family, excellent result, bright future, confidence in serving, romantic relationship, lasting friendship, caring friends, sophisticated bicycle, pretty clothing, latest hand-phone, wind-blowing hairstyle, sweet singing voice, good in speaking.....the list goes on and on. Gambateh and be the one who love, love, love JESUS ya. Let’s do it together and invite more into the list ya.

Sorry for my poor sharing ya. Anyway, hope that you enjoy it. :P

Two lovable juniors having their baptism today
I shared bible basic knowledge with three 90th young believers
I arranged one giving-encouragement section
Again, they wrote that I am ‘cute’
Is it a good thing to share?
Don’t know how long I will carry this title?
Anyway, got ‘fly fly’ a bit coz they actually shared more than our 1st meet
Taught Sunday School
Inserted “Bible Millionaire” game in my teaching
They were excited about having laptop and projector in class
Thankful that i manage to catch their attention
As i found out that devotional material in the workbook is not attractive enough for 11-12 years old kids
I photocopied 6-days devotion materials for them
Emphasizing the importance of devotion
I gave 5-colours beads to them as Christmas Gift
Of course not forgetting to share the meanings of those 5 colours
Surprisingly, they were so excited getting such gift
In my eye, it’s just a very small gift, nothing much
Ah, kids are so simple-minded
Had an idle evening resting
So coincidentally
Two juniors calling me up at night and chatted for almost 2 hours
Just get to know that there are so many stories happening in Parit Buntar
Wakaka...

For the past week, my mood has been swinging end-to-end without reasons. I couldn’t figure out what’s wrong with me. Just feel like venting my temper, not wanting to think of the consequences or anyone that i may hurt. Sit down and telling myself that i am so bad to behave like that.

There are surprises after surprises dooming these few weeks. I am elevated by all these, however on the other hand, i feel restless. I lost my own leisure time, thinking...imagining...planning... it’s like back to university life whereby there were lots of decision and plans to jump over.

I had finished the 1st theology class last Saturday. It’s really a knowledge-based and learning-inclined class where i came across lots of ritual or different religion practices. When i know more about other religion/belief, it somehow makes me more confident to share gospel with them. Some practices i was like “Ah, like this also can ar?”, and i really really wonder the reasons behind.

There are lots of excitements this week. GOD is really my shepherd, i shall lack nothing.

The managing director of a contact lens company requests me to design the product packaging corporate line. I never know that there is such high position person in church until Uncle Pang called me up. It’s my very first time designing for packaging, and what matters more is to design for contact lens (p/s: i never wear before o). Really thank GOD for the golden opportunity and appreciate much Uncle Pang for trusting me the task.

Last Sunday, Teacher Wong approached me to be Art Teacher at her tuition centre. Wow, such a good news to welcome. It’s a newly established tuition centre, if i were to agree, then i will be leading all of the Art Classes. I made a floral handcraft for her tuition centre few weeks back. She thought of me when there are parents requesting for art class. A simple thing sometimes does have blessing in disguise. We won’t know how GOD is going to work in us. Teacher Wong said we can work together to share gospel with the kids in long term. Ah, this is what the sound of my heart sings about. Being a influent teacher and to share good news with the kids......

Prince lychee is wow-ing at what i am experiencing now. He cheerfully summarized for me, saying that last month I give away that much and now GOD bless me more than that. GOD is really amazing. When i sat down and thought all over again, deep relief was circulating around. I really can’t imagine what i am going through now. It is like a dream......

Photoshop-ing for contact lens and still pending for being an Art Teacher.....Seeking for HIS will....